yawnness

and i'm now in my prison cell bedroom, bored as hell and extremely homesick. i wanna go home to my comfortable bed, routine lifestyle and familiarity. ): Mom just boarded the plane too, so the homesickness is just increasing as the minutes tick by. I can't wait for classes to begin, I need the distraction away, so the next four months can fly by and I can go home in July!! July 8th, you just wait for me, I miss everyone back home. ):

Don't believe me when I say I have a prison cell bedroom? Everyone keeps saying it can't be that bad, but when I put up that picture everyone says it really does look like a prison cell. xD I think its probably cause of the walls, but I dunno, the room is basically, to quote Penny, me living in a tiny box for the next few months. *claws*

Did sorta meet people though! Wandered in to the kitchen to wash my plates after my pathetic dinner yesterday, and saw a girl named Pam there making chocolate puffs, which I ended up helping her make. xD She's a Malaysian too, but she's been here for three years and graduated last year. She's still here as a residents worker I think, but she won't be in my house for long either. ): I think we clicked well, which is why I'm kinda all ): that she's moving to her own flat next week or so. But she lets me crash her place? xD

They showed me this cute game too! They have magnetic balls stuck on the fridge, and a target pasted there. So you're supposed to throw the balls at the fridge and aim for the middle spot, kinda like archery, except with a fridge and magnetic balls. xD Oh the things we do to amuse ourselves in this tiny area.

inexplicable attached

Sometimes I don't get it. How could you just relinquish home like that? I understand it all well enough, Malaysia is a shit country. Hot weather, hopeless politics, useless welfare and biasness and corruption happening left right and center. Its not the best place to live in, I admit that myself... but Malaysia is not the only place with a completely gutter-fied government. I see people complaining about the government in Australia too, and with how great their welfare system here, I'm inclined to believe that people are just complaining for the sake of complaining.

But I digress. What I want to know is, how can you so easily say 'I don't like Malaysia, I want to give up my passport and residency immediately, but family keeps me there.' How can you just as easily say that you would only return there for holidays? Granted, I'm extremely grounded to Malaysia because of my family, but if so then I can just go back there during holidays.

So why am I so attached to my home? I don't know. Might be the ease of which I live there. There is nowhere else where I can just walk in and order my kopi peng or teh 'o' peng and know that everyone will understand me. Its somewhere where I don't have to worry about visa or my passport or even bringing my ID along. Its a place where I'm four hours away from my hometown and half an hour away from my brother should I need anything. I can't exactly text my brother telling him I need a HDMI cable within half an hour and expect him to be there with it if I'm in Australia.

I'm here for six months, and its a learning experience I wouldn't exchange for the world. I love the ease of the public transport here, I adore the weather here to bits, temperamental as it may be. I love the campus lifestyle here, but I wouldn't exchange a life here for my home under any circumstance. Malaysia is home, and its very inexplicable on my part, to explain my attachment to the place. Its just the idea that I've been born and bred there, and no matter how horrible or bad the country or government is, it is still my home. My family and friends are there, my memories linger there, be it good or bad. My whole life is there. I can't just up and leave so easily, and good or bad, its been my home since I've been born.

So I have to admit, when I hear Malaysians saying they don't want to leave Australia or that they would rather come here... I'm just a tad dissapointed that you can just disregard your home so easily.

heart is sinking

Annnddd its the last day of orientation. Technically. Well technically there's the Monash Dash at Clayton tomorrow, but for one I'm not even going to be in Clayton, and for another I'm too lazy to run. Not that I'm not athletic (actually, I think I'm turning to be a real lazy bum, but shhh. :P), but I would rather hike/climb/swim/bike rather then run around like a headless chicken. I like treasure hunts, but only when I'm organizing it. I rather like watching people running around frantically. *sadist*

But anyway! Clayton campus is huge, I can't iterate that enough. Its massive! I swear I almost got lost, except the map is pretty easy to read. But after three days there, I only know my way around Building 63, and the Campus Centre. Anywhere else and you'll see question marks appearing above my head. If I were to go there and had back to back classes, I'll lose weight in a month, I swear to you. I don't know how do people get from class to class here without either running madly or getting a bike!

On another note, I think I've lost my picture taking mojo. I can't be bothered pulling out my camera anymore, and most of the time when I do end up taking pictures, its just with my Ipod and those photos usually end up on instagram. Speaking of which, follow me! Its at kittykits! :P

Last day of orientation and i took the public transport back myself, which surprisingly isn't as complicating, even if it is tedious and long. Bus from Clayton to Huntingdale, Pakenham line to Parliament and change to Sydenham line at Flagstaff all the way to Watergardens, all in all took me an hour to take. Then again though, I'd rather do that journey then study at Gippsland, which is a twenty dollar fare to the city via V-line. *sour face* but meh, I don't have a choice anymore. It rained on my journey back though, and I did like just sitting by the window with my earplugs plugged in contemplating the problems of my world. :P

Crossing fingers for an awesome O-week next week and a fun semester for the next six months!! ^_^

whoah. O-O

Yeahhh. Figured I should just keep a blog during my six month stay in Melbourne, partly because I doubt I can remember everything and just want to keep stuff as memories, and partly because.. well Gippsland is a hella boring place. There's really not much to do here! Literally. I'm back in Syndenham now at Uncle Eddy's place, thankfully. But that's only because there's the Abroad orientation going on in Clayton this week. Next week is when I move back to the land of wild bunnies roaming around my not-so-big-but-complicated campus. Meh. ):

Life through instagram! That seems to be how things are these days, and while my Ipod is only workable with wi-fi, i'm semi-addicted to that app. I update like crazy when I get wi-fi. :P But either way, Uncle Eddy's food is amazing. Its like I never left Malaysia! Curry, char koay teow, nasi lemak, you name it he makes it. And in Gippsland I have to make a ten minute trudge to Hazelwood in the next village to get my groceries. Meh. I'll survive on bread and butter.

Totally does not help that v-line tickets are so expensive too! Fortnightly trips to the city it is, I can't afford to make one every week. Psh. But oh well, I'll be the asian kid who sits in her room and stares at her computer all day, school-shooter tendencies and all. xD Fingers still crossed that I'll make awesome friends and have an awesome six months here, but I'm all resigned to being friendless and sticking to my room.

That said though, Melbourne city is an amazing place. I love the culture and lifestyle here, and had my campus been closer to the city, I have no doubt that I would have had an amazing time here, friendless or not. I'm quite fine with adventuring by myself, and I can walk for miles alone had my campus not been so far.

But ah well, life sucks that way. Loneliness, here I come! xD

I really really thought you were going to get better. It was just an anal infection, nothing big right? I thought you were shaking cause your legs were tired from standing up all the time cause you couldn't sit. Till now, I still wonder if I were to go over to Coa's place, would you be running to the gate with your stump of a tail wagging, pressing your nose against my hand, leaning your extremely heavy head against my thigh just begging for a pet.

You love it when I scratch under your neck, you love it when I bring you out for a run. I'm so so sorry I didn't manage to bring you out for a run the last time I was there, because I was too lazy. I'm sorry for tripping over you and making you fall that one time when I brought you out, I'm sorry for not giving you enough attention. I wish I could've given you a better, much better life then the one you had.

I love you, and I miss you so much Mimigirl♥ I still wish I could feel your huge head under my hand, feel your sandy, strong and lean body under my fingers. I miss your gallop, your strength when you pull me along for your daily walk. I miss you. I wish you were still here.

furusato!

Have I introduced you guys to the new ruler of my heart?

Its been a rule of thumb for a while now, not to get close to anyone or thing. They're just going to end up leaving one way or another, and I'd rather not deal with the heartache that follows. But there's this one bugger whose managed to worm his way under my skin.

Oh trust me, I've tried not to fall for that huge pair of brown googly eyes and fluffy skin. Even back when he was a pup, I... wasn't exactly the most attached of owners. I've seen people stay home all the time for a new puppy. Me? I go out all day, my routine hardly changes.

I can't say it changed now, I still go out most of the day. And I still bully him. Oh, trust me when I say I bully him.

I shove him around, I throw his toys at him, take them away from him. I make him run and I withhold his treats from him sometimes.

But I never push him around to hard, and I can't resist cuddling his fuzzy body and talk nonsense as I ruffle his ridiculously long and useless ears, while he just looks up at me cluelessly. Probably thinking I'm mad too.

But he does get revenge sometimes. Sometimes.

He never retaliates, he only play bites, he has the patience of a saint, and he's so attached its almost impossible for anyone not to be endeared to him.

Granted, he's a completely useless guard dog. He thinks the world is his friend, and give him some food and you can probably coax him to rob a bank.

But I dare you not to fall in love with that completely adorable face. I know I have.

OKAY PICTURE DUMP. Though forewarning, I might not be updating my blog as often as before nowadays, cause uni is just impossibly busy, plus I find it easier to just dump everything on facebook and caption everything there, hence... yeah, just go there. xD

CUTES THING EVER OMG MEMORY LANE'S NEW RANGE OF PLUSHIES. SO CUTE. Their microbacteria actually, but they're so floofy and cute and lskdjksj.

AND CUTE BOTTLE. Bought it from daiso, it contains milk. So darn cute. klsjdlksd

Went out to meet Farah and Sophia the other day! At Full House at pyramid, where the mashed potato is omgsogoodlksdksjad.

And that meeting ended up leading to another one of a gathering of all of us at Snowflakes on Friday! I haven't seen this people in 2 years, and though we're missing some people, its so fun to see everyone there!♥

Also, went home during first of May for grandmother's birthday! The cousins there got a new puppy omg its a cute little fuzzball!

Its always like a family conference whenever all of us congregrate back home. The sofas are never enough so some people eventually end up sitting on the floor. Somehow, I prefer sitting on the floor though. xD

This is what happens when there's too many girls in a family. Lack of mirrors when an event is going on. xD

BIRTHDAY CAKEEE♥

AND MIKU OMG SO GOOD♥ I only ever eat the ones at Penang, because the ones sold here is disgusting. D:

The cousin bought me this omo so cute!

The day before I went home, cousin brigade headed out for lunch together in the plus ones car! If you guys are wondering, plus one is one of my cousins' boyfriend, who has yet to gain full approval from all of us. Pending. xD

We went to Mae Salong! Its a place that apparently sells really good green curry in Penang.

I'm not food entrepreneur, but the surroundings were gorgeous!

I couldn't resist taking 90829038123 pictures. I'm sparing you with only two. xD

The really good green curry, which I guess is actually pretty good since its really creamy and stuff. But the rest of the stuff we had was major spicy. And most of us can't really take overly spicy food.

And that is the end result, everyone sweating like mad as they eat. xD

Also, we finished three jugs of water. Ice cold water. xD

I hate saying goodbye. ):

But once home, the sisters brought me to roller blading!

2 out of 4 of them anyway, since the other two was busy. D: but roller blading is always fun with more people!

We found the canopy walk to pyramid from college! Omg it took a while too!

Its a five minute walk, but the view is actually quite pretty as you walk. You can see Lagoon as you walk too! You come soooo close to the roller coaster rides.

Lunch date with the Meis! Creme bruleee~

Of course, we always have our Kindori. Is that even a question? xD

We all wear slippers to school! Because we're all too lazy to wear proper shoes. xD

Also, I think I beat almost every single one of her high scores on her Itouch games. :P

CCF after rehearsals! Ahhh, dance concert just ended. I hate it when an event ends, it feels so empty. D: