must not fail

Contrary to popular belief, I'm not a spendthrift, and neither am I bathing in my riches. In fact, I'm actually rather thrifty on my spendings, and frankly half of my clothing came from knocked down prices and stuff. And neither am I the smartest student out there who can snap straight A's in the blink of an eye. I study my ass off. Even for my driving exam. I don't study outright, I prefer doing it in seclusion. My motivation?

Money. No, i'm not a money faced idiot. I just think I shouldn't waste money on my studies when I can pass it the first time without forking out extra.

My whole driving force behind my theory driving exam? "If I fail, I'll have to fork out another chunk of money to pay for another exam. MUST NOT FAIL." And my SPM? "If I fail, my moms gonna have to use hell of a lot of money to pay for a resit and another year of form 5. MUST NOT FAIL." And so... yes, my motivation is money. And I pretty much set out what I wanted to do since I was in Form 3, so I knew what I had to do.

Now... I'm in Monash. And the pressure is getting to me. There's like, 4 assignments to hand up this month alone, first month. And then there's meetings for my clubs, and my deadline for editorial. I'm not complaining, trust me. I joined everything of my own free will and I love every second of everything I do. But at the same time, I can't help but wonder if I'll be able to cope? I stress myself out easily, and its barely the second week. Know what? I couldn't sleep on Wednesday night cause I was fretting about my assignments and stuff. I wonder how it'll be like in days to come.

But nevertheless, the same thing. "If I fail, it means A LOT A LOT of money to repay. SO I DEFINITELY MUST NOT FAIL." In fact, its the only thing I'm moderately good at, so I'll try my best to get the best grades I can get. ever. Wish me luck? ^___^